I’d been wandering around the dark corners of xanga.com into wrong blogrings and found xangans who ‘intake’ less than 300 calories per day and to them, it’s gross. That’s just unhealthy and…sick? 

I don’t understand how people practice anorexia and bulimia and seeing nothing wrong with it. They are quite proud and often being offended if someone saying telling them it’s unhealthy to do so. Don’t they know that they probably have a very low self-esteem and self-worth? Don’t they know that they need to work inside out to be and feel beautiful?

I have to admit there was one time in my life that I was under the weight I wanted to be. It’s not by choice that my weight dropped more than 10 pounds in one week. Things happened, illness did strike. That was 3 years ago. At that time, I was discovered by a model agency and they had the audacity to tell me that my weight is ok but I needed to tone down. I was 95 lbs at 5 feet 3. My BMI was 16.5. What’s there to tone? I was already underweight! If I loose any more pounds and/or tone my bones down like they wanted me to, then now, it would be third year anniversary of my death. (Now for those who’s wondering how can a 5 feet 3 be discovered by model agency; well, they wanted my face and my face belongs to my head which attached to my body. That was how.) 

Being able to consume food is a blessing. Being able to intake them is even a greater blessing. Many many people in the world are unable to purchase food and face starvation everyday. There are people who have to limit their choice on food/dish because of the illness they have. To me, food is beyond blessing. Take me for an example: I was ill since I was 11 days old. I was rushed, stayed, and called hospital my home until I was 4. Up to the age of 10, I was set, cared for, and provided with food. I was not allowed to eat junk foods and fruits. My meals were monitored. I know it was no life but I was introduced to plenty of healthy and tasty meals.  I was healthy. I weighted normal. Not once in my life, I cut down my intake just because I think I’m fat. If I think I weight more than I should, I would exercise more and divided my plate into 3 sections: meat, veggie, and carb. I watch what I eat. I eat quite often through out the day, in small chunks once every 2 or 3 hours. Oh and I eat a lot for my main courses.

I don’t know much about models nor agencies due the the fact that I was there 3 times for 3 different agencies just to learn the process of modeling, but I do know that sexiness is not from clothing, it’s a state of being. Beauty is not skin deep but how your body holds it by using your mind, your knowledge . Being Fabulous is the attitude one chose to carry it out. Holding Gorgeousness is your smile, as long as you’re smiling, you’re attractive and drawing people in. Twenty, thirty years from now, you would not have the pretty young face you have now so don’t go on brushing on how you look. Health is important. It is a building process, not an overnight thing. Food is one of the greatest things you can have in this life that can help you going through life. So use it, take advantage of it. Consume it. Work it for your good. Look fades, only health stays.